just finished talking to fazna. cry for a while. ayah tok kt hospital. tomorrow he's due for an endogram. hope e'thng will be ok. mamatok, as usual, nak masak utk semua org, nak layan cucu, nk jaga ayah tok, etc.
i'm back in putrajaya. took a flight, a bus, an a train...smp jgk kt putrajaya. all the way...coughing and sniffing, and pretending to be cool. inside...seribu satu perasaan ada. sad, homesick, missing fazna, missing the rest of the family, etc. physically, tekak sakit and berhingus. hehe. kesian mat saleh kt sblh aku dlm flight. mesti dia takut kna H1N1 tgk aku asyik batuk dan bersin je.
now i'm half way thru the course. another 4-5 months to go. thinking a lot about family lately. nxt week nuha plak due for anther operation in ijn. at times like these, i cant help but realize that no matter what comes our way, family should always be on top of our priority list. no compromise.
fazna slalu tanye what makes me so unhappy here. and i ask myself the same question. i dont have the answers...only the fact that i miss him so much. in him, i found a friend, a confidante, the other half of me. fazna said there should be colours in life...at times he is my motivator, my sparring partner, my advisor, and my biggest critic. would i rather have it any other way? NO!!! I would be the first to admit that i am not perfect. and so does fazna. but we're perfect for each other.
we may not always understand each other. no matter how hard we try to explain. but some other times...we just understand it perfectly...without any explanation. we may not have all the wealth like other couples do. and we dont get to see each other a lot. but what we have...the laughters, the tears, we share. and that's what matter.
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